Disabled

today mood really worst than ever...
even take the earliest bus also get bus that drive slow like tortoise...
rest for more than half an hour at reststop
745 am bus but arrived at house at 245 pm...
what the hell...

today is buddy selection among coursemate
which decided suddenly, n really 1 vs 43
coz only i am absent
sure its my problem coz i m the one ponteng class n still in penang
but i feel i m indeed a lousily fail person...
if before...i believe thr wil be someone stand out n say
its not that rush why dun jz choose another day...
buddy selection is once in a life time...no second time in life
n now i missed it... got anyone among my coursemate can feel that...
although its kinda selfish for me to think that way...
but cant it jz be a little bit 人情味...
isit that urgent? u know how many of us still dun read thru junior qinqinkuku write de xin qing blog?
it is always like that in ukm...
thats y i say i regret forever...
no one will understand each other...
not even one...
i know its my problem maybe...but who can help me...
i am helpless once again...i cant be as independent as i thought i can...
but i will remain silent as usual... helpless til the day i graduate

对一个残缺的人来说，无助，不过如此...